“The consciousness of loving and being loved brings a warmth and richness to life that nothing else can bring.”
– Oscar Wilde –
This last week was brutal. By the grace of God, I survived. But at times, it was not pretty. There is a lack, of respect, these days in regards to our time. Yesterday, I got angry and slammed a door. (shock face) My motive was two fold–one, I was frustrated and two, to show how rumors get started because some feel the need to gossip. (shock face) I think we forget about reaping and sowing. Karma.
I mentioned awhile back that God will use anything and anyone to prune and produce more spiritual fruit within us. I guess I needed more pruning this week because each day brought more things and stuff. Yesterday, I realized no matter how kind or respectful you are to others; free will allows others to fill in the blank______________. (shock face)
I slammed a door out of frustration. I talk to God all the time. I pleaded with Him yesterday, help me, Lord Jesus, what are you trying to teach me because it’s obvious I am being tested and failing. I took a break and prayed. I tried meditating on 1 Corinthians 10:13 – There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it. Nothing. I still had to walk through the thing.
Sometimes, we forget that no matter what happens; no matter what others say or how they treat us; we are loved unconditionally by God and the rest is irrelevant. (smile) There is a liberating freedom when your self worth comes from being a child of God! His love never fails. (smile)
That moment lasted twelve minutes before I was dealt the final blow of the day. (sad face)
I had been crashing and burning, on something, most of the week, to get a call to stop and pick it back up next week! What, I thought. Has this ever happened to you? Time wasted. (Ugh)
I didn’t breath calmly, my silly thoughts kicked in reminding me of all the things I didn’t do because of this something. I broke down and cried so hard that I asked God, why, Heavenly Father, why do I bother to do the right thing when it’s obvious I am not respected here!
It took almost twenty minutes for me to hear Him say softly, it’s not about you. Let thy will be done Lord. The one thing I love about my relationship with The Lord is my freedom to tell Him anything. Even when I am frustrated. He always listens. (smile)
Many times, obedience is about showing something to those around us. Let’s be honest, we’re all on different levels spiritually. Listed above has the scriptures, in the bible, on one another. When we can do these scriptures from a genuine heart, we sow into each other’s life. (smile)
I also like to thank and bless a friend–who likes to use K, when replying for emphasis. God had you in the right place at the right time! Thanks so much!
I had to repent and forgive quite a bit last night to let the things and stuff of the week go.
Be blessed my friends and enjoy your weekend! Comments and thoughts are welcome. (smile)